I feel like curling up in a ball, cry my eyes out, detach from reality and sleep all day. But, I’m better than that and I will be strong and come off better than he will be out of this.
Anonymous asked: You're absolutly stunning.
You both need to just disappear and have absolutely nothing at all to do with me, and I’ll be happy again.. Just like I was about 8 months ago. FUCK YOU you piece of shit waste of time I hate you.
Really wish I never thought we could be something amazing, I was so happy alone.
I should go through break ups more often,
I haven’t been able to eat properly since therefore I am losing weight.. Yay
I’d delete all the depressed crap about breaking up with my boyfriend but I am too lazy. He was the biggest waste of time.
Sure, it’s hard but I am so much better than this.
It feels like without him my world is going to fall apart but I know this will get better, and easier.
NEW GAME PLAN
- cheer up. - get a full time job asap. - save up ridiculous amounts of money. - go on a contiki tour to Europe, alone. - meet my handsome blonde hair blue eyed hubby whilst on my travels.
I gave you everything I had and loved you like no other and you have thrown it all back in my face. Words can not describe how empty, stupid, hurt and confused I am right now. I’d like to get away, far far away.
I can’t stop crying and I hate this. I don’t want to let go.
FUCKING DISAPPEAR ALREADY
defer uni - complete.
- full time job. - a house to rent, with or without Connor. - save to go to Italy/Europe. - get a kitten.
I don’t know what I want to do with my life, but all I know is that now that I am going to defer uni, I want to get away from this place. Away from my fathers disapproving eyes.
I like that we both struggle to sleep without being next to each other now and that he will come to sleep next to me and snuggle me at any time of the night.
toujourscroire asked: I luv chu!!