It’s so annoying that we’re nothing, we barely talk anymore but I can’t talk to anyone else without feeling so horrible. I get this sick gut feeling even though I know that there’s nothing there and it’s only because today you told me you miss me that I’m filled with this ridiculous false hope.
I find it so silly that we all seem to spend so much time searching for a boyfriend or a partner, someone to cuddle us and make us feel special. Attaching ourselves to different people that seem to inevitably end up just hurting us anyway. We seem to have this idea that the only way to feel special and happy is to be with someone and that is a sad state of affairs. We’re young, we have our whole lives ahead of us. These years shouldn’t be spent stressing because a certain guy doesn’t ‘like’ us.
I think we should learn to make ourselves happy first, instead of relying on a certain other person to make us happy.
I don’t think I’ve ever met someone so fucking frustrating and so fucking up and down, it shits me so much. You annoy the absolute fuck out of me and make me feel like shit a lot of the time lol but I still can’t bring myself to just give up and walk away. Fuck you